Gosh. I thought about some things today. A select few know what I'm talking about and for those who don't... oh well it's none of you business anyways. But for those select few... what the hell happend to us? Like seriously, I know I've had my issues, and I know you all have had yours but... come on now, can't we all just try and get over them and try to go back to way things used to be? I remember one whom I was closest with told me that we'd still be friends and be cool, but it would never be the same. Even though you directed those words towards me, it seems as if it's not only between you and I. It's between everyone. No matter how hard we try we just can't stick together anymore. It's sad, because I love and miss each and every one of you. And although we still keep in contact with one another, and there's no drama or no "beef" with anyone, it's still this silence we have that's between us.
It hurts. :( I'm not pointing the finger at anyone in the fall of our friendship, I honestly feel like we've all contributed to it in our own little way.
And I realize that nothing lasts forever... but I sorta .... no I WISH we would have. In the months I was away, I realized how much I love you guys, and how I thought of you all as family. I go to you guys about things that happen in real life that I'm not so comfortable telling everyone. I miss the chats we'd have about the most random thing, and the love we all had for one another...... Damn I'm such a crybaby, I'm crying over it now. :( And yeah I know it's late to STILL be getting emotional about it, but... I can't help it., I've never just came out and told people how I felt, and how this has been bothering me. I didn't wanna seem like that weak girl that you all knew once before. But yeah. Basically what I'm saying is that I miss all of you, and I miss everything that we had.
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